Real Doc

Real Doc texted me a couple days later. We went on a second date. Despite the fact that we share a lot of values, I wasn't attracted to him. There just wasn't much chemistry. On top of that, he's not really a good kisser.

This is when I realized that I have become "picky". Dating experts would tell you that there is a difference between being "picky" and being "discriminative". Being "picky" is if you will only date guys of certain profession, of certain looks/heights, have certain "status". Being "discriminative" is if you will only date guys of certain qualities such as good characters, shared values, and sense of humor.

But where does chemistry fall? How important is chemistry? After a while, doesn't chemistry just die out anyway? I am not sure if chemistry is just lust.

After dates like this I get very depressed. I especially missed Dr. TGIASE after these dates. Dr. TGIASE and I had chemistry. We shared values. He made me laugh. I had so much fun with him. And most importantly, he's a really good man.

Then I thought about all the happy couples I know. Friend A's boyfriend is always super busy, but he would text her while he's in the bathroom just to tell her that he misses her in a 14-hour work day. Friend B's boyfriend planned and bought all the tickets for their visits before he moved away for a while. Friend C's husband knows Friend C gets anxious when he doesn't call, and he understands if Friend C had to call his friends to get in touch with him. Friend D will call his wife when he gets a minute break just to tell her how beautiful she is. I doubt any of the happy couple ever acted out this "I am too busy for you" moment.

Dating is depressing. Especially when I realized the same guys who had contacted me a few months ago are still online and looking at my profile again. I wish I were the girl who could tolerate the emotions elicited by Dr. TGIASE's lack of response/attention. I wish I were much more secured. But I am not. That makes Dr. TGIASE and a I a bad match. I am sad that I had to let go of such a great guy. I imagine there will be a guy out there who won't be too busy for me, who won't leave me hanging, wondering what's going on.

As far as Real Doc goes, I would go on more dates with him if he asks. I am trying to see if chemistry is overrated.

What I learned: In the confrontation between the stream and the rock, the stream always win - not through strength but by perseverance. H. Jackson Brown.