Since I am not in town for the official Valentine's day, Dr. TGIASE and I celebrated Valentine's day early. It's been a full 4 months! Dr. TGIASE came to my place with a suit on which makes him super hot. He brought flowers, then took me to a nice ocean-front restaurant where we had a nice dinner. The gentleman paid. Then he took me to the beach told me that having someone he respected who liked him back is something he hadn't had for a while. He then gave me a Valentine's day card, pointed to the card that says "you have my heart", looked me in my eyes and said: "I can't buy you a diamond ring yet, but..." God damn. The man who told me he should propose to me on our first date is, um, hinting that he may think about marrying me??? We went home and he had brought me a box of candles because I said I wanted candles on Valentine's day. He arranged them in a heart shape. Awe.
I wrote this down because I want to come back and remember two things:
1) He took time out of his crazy busy pre-move days to celebrate this with me. It wasn't a huge scene, but he planed a romantic time with me.
2) I could tell that he's distracted, but he tried to tell me nice things. Remember that if he thinks about me 15% of his time, I should be happy. He's a man who will be distracted by life, but he makes a point to celebrate a special time with me.
What about the ups and downs? Well, we are really learning about each other. More so, I am learning a lot about myself, too. Specifically how my own neurosis can get in the way. I hope my first insecure reaction can be lessened over time, and I learn to handle my insecurity well.
Most importantly, doctors' partners are saints. Lots of people want to marry doctors, but only a few can handle being doctors' partners. I still am not sure if I have what it takes.
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