Searching for the perfect man

I have come to the conclusion that the way Dr. TGIASE disrespected my feelings and the way he shuts me out of his life was completely unacceptable. He is a partner who says "here is the boat. I am on it. You are either on or off." I want a partner who says "here is a boat. Let us decide if we want to be on it together."

That said, I started thinking about all the relationships/marriages I know. How many of them are true partnerships where both are best of friends while utterly compatible in life? How many are just results of comprise after comprise? Modern women ask a lot in a man. We want our best friend in a partner; we want him to be the father of our children; we want him to be the provider for the family; we want him to share the household work; we want him to satisfy us sexually all around; we want him to provide emotional support; we want to be connected with him on every level.

Is that realistic? I sometimes think that's the difference between women in satisfactory relationships and women who are, like myself, single after certain ages. We ask for the perfect man who can provide us satisfaction in every aspect of our lives. This could be done in our mother's time, or their mother's time, because back then there weren't that many aspects of women's lives. If he could bring the bacon and the children, women were content. If he supported women in any other way, he's a saint. But as women's lives are more enriched, they also need fulfillment on more levels. Is it, then, still realistic to expect a man to fulfill all our needs?

Dr. TGIASE can be a good provider. He can bring me children, on hopes. He definitely makes me happy in the sack. So he can't provide the emotional support I need. Can I live with that and seek the support somewhere else?

In terms of the life decision part. There is still the question of if this can be comprised eventually, or if this is a deal breaker.

I wonder when I look back at this post, if I would feel angry because I was making excuse to stay with him, or if I would feel gratitude because I made excuse to stay with him.

But one way or another, I have to decide soon. I don't want to break up when he starts med school again. It needs to be done so he has time to recover.